Mushoku Tensei S3 Episode 13 “The Diary” Yaboyrocklee Reaction — Mental Health Pillars

Mushoku Tensei Season 3 Episode 13 is called “The Diary.” If you’ve been watching on Crunchyroll, Studio Bind’s been building toward this all season. Last week Rudy’s older self handed him a warning. This week he opens the diary — and the anime shows you the version of his life that broke him.

This Yaboyrocklee Reaction is the Main channel episode reaction we recorded Sunday.

Here’s what I clocked

Rudy puts his pillar on people. His psychological health — his mental health — is on a pillar connected to people like Sylphy. When somebody like Sylphy is removed, because that’s a pillar of his mental health, it diminishes and he goes away. I don’t think he has a pillar that if he’s just by himself, he is just good. He kinda has a dependency.

You can’t put your pillar connected to things like that. Speaking personally — even like, “Yeah, as long as my YouTube channel’s safe, I’m happy.” “As long as you’re in my life, I’m happy.” What if she’s not in your life?

If you have pillars that are tied to things, you can easily shatter. And that’s what I observed in him.

And it’s actually been consistent in the anime. He has pillars that are attached to people. We obviously know how he felt in the previous world — that’s the whole starting point of Mushoku Tensei. So even though he has other people to rely on in this life, his foundation or his mental health is just not grounded properly.

Grief

I actually wanted to talk more about his grief too.

Now his grief, his actions was crazy. But I personally — and I’m speaking for myself — this is why I wasn’t so hard on him too.

Sometimes when I get caught in a moment of pride, I am aware that pride has gripped me, and I’m making a bad decision. And I will get an uncontrollable anger. The thing is, I don’t do what he does, but I am aware that I’m not talking to people, I’m being short, and I am just mad, and I cannot escape this rage.

So I see that’s what Rudy was going through.

Grief is a normal response if you lose people. But between him not having the strength to support his mental health when he loses people, and the natural grief you will have when you lose someone you care about — when he gets hit with disaster like that, you gonna see that exact crash out.

And it’s just like, damn dog.

And then you drinking the bottle.

Episode 13 — “The Diary”

In “The Diary,” the anime doesn’t shy away from that either. When Rudy’s world falls apart in that future, the bottle shows up. I know from experience again — when you’re drinking alcohol and you have a bad emotion, it taints you even more.

Before we started this video, I actually commented when someone had irritated me just last night. I was in the middle of drinking my soju, and I had to disconnect from the conversation or I had to stop drinking my soju. I told that to my wife too. The moment I’m drinking soju and something irritates me, I’m like, “Ah, I can no longer drink this.” Cause I already know how I’m going to get. Something builds into me, and the alcohol is going to feed it.

That’s why you can’t rely on the bottle.

So anyways, all that happens — like, yeah man, I get it, man.

The lesson

But the lesson is be mindful where you put your pillar of strength in. You need to have pillars that when those people are removed or that circumstances move or your bank account hits zero, that you don’t jump off a building and end it, you know?

And that’s an important lesson.

If you haven’t watched Season 3 Episode 13 “The Diary” yet, it’s on Crunchyroll. Watch the episode, then come sit with this Yaboyrocklee Reaction. Watch the reaction above.